jPay Message #393

Back when I was doing dope, I’d always wonder if people overheard me on the phone with my dealer. “Yo im trying to get a little boy.” (boy is heroin, girl is coke, btw, for all the squares). I felt like Id have to explain to anyone in earshot: “IT’S NOT WHAT YOU THINK, I’M…More

“How I Meditate”

There is no one “right” way to meditate. In fact, the many different sects of Buddhism and Hinduism are mostly variations in their approach to meditation. My personal favorite that I use everyday is called “The View” in Paula Watkins’ “Meditation Made Simple”. I personally like this meditation because it helps ground me in my…More

“Predators Have Feelings Too”

In quarantine, you have to watch what’s infamously known as “the candy bar” video, which is all about prison rape. There are teary eyed testimonials from victims of prison rape (almost all white guys). They also address how to handle a come on from a predator. Usually, these take their initial form in an offer…More

jPay Message #392

I don’t have the luxury of feeling depressed–or, to be exact, act depressed. Ive seen guys get beat up for not showering. I gotta make my bed, sweep my area, keep my shit tight, or else…My breath stinks? there’s 50 people in the vicinity who’ll be glad to let me know.  In that way, prison…More

jPay Message #390

Back when I was doing dope, I’d always wonder if people overheard me on the phone with my dealer. “Yo im trying to get a little boy.” (boy is heroin, girl is coke, btw, for all the squares). I felt like Id have to explain to anyone in earshot: “IT’S NOT WHAT YOU THINK, I’M…More